i go through these phases. they change depending on what i’ve been absorbing and where i’m seeing the best or worst in people. if i read a lot about the copenhagen conference in december, i feel like doing what i can to make changes in my life and helping other people see where we can work together to change things for ourselves. when i watch television or hear people talk about politics (or nearly any social issues) in this country, i want to drown in a river. this stuff  blows my mind. this whole partisan state vs. federal government, republican vs. democrat vs. we-don’t-have-a-bleeding-clue clusterfuck gets to be too much for me.

people are sheep. love- this idiotic idea given to us by television and culture which has nothing to do with what people can, and do share together in any relationship, is completely bullocks.

i need to get the fuck away from a screen for a while, loose myself in another language and find out who i am.

i know what you're thinking, but i'm not your property. no matter what you say, no matter what you say.

lies, lies, lies…

the only good in this world is in the love we express not just in the things we do to show other people how we feel but in what we put back into the world to show it, devoid of any other intention.

i continue to see just how much we do in order to abdicate responsibility. how much profit margins drives things, people, the world.. but that you also have to prioritize things. there's so much in this world which is proposterous and injust.. and it's hypocritical to lug around and complain about it without doing anything, but where does that leave us? we can't go bonkers over everything. and you can't let the branding pass you either. apathy is not the answer.

sorrow drips into your heart through a pinhole. like a faucet that leaks, and there is comfort in the sound. look while you debate half empty and half full, it slowly rises, your love is gonna drown.

i haven’t been in a relationship for quite a while. it blows my mind to be around different friends who are doing different things; some in very loving, healthy relationships with people they genuinely care about and others breaking up with people they care about very much for ridiculous reasons. i’ve just got me going on. work (at apple) making music (with matthew), and trying to do what i want with my life. it’s lonely at times and liberating at others. it’s nice to get around whenever and however i want to play a show here or go out to see good friends there. but i still fall asleep alone, wanting the same thing.

i don’t miss losing someone. i’m done with that. but my heart belongs to someone i haven’t met.

c’est la vie.

amandadeary:

Cliche, cliche, cliche. I feel I am surrounded.

It has disappeared; sincerity, truth, and trust.

I want it back.

with no alibi love is used as a guide by the civilized, some see it as the body heat you feel when you close your eyes. that's so much of a lie, you can leave your hair dyed and scorch your roots as the truth hits, your ears begin to cry.

why is it like this? why the fuck do i care? i don't have the answers, or atleast the ones you want to hear.

politics, the dealings and interactions which pertain to policy, are mechanism of beauracracy. which in this country is given to us in the form of democracy in the form of a (bullshit) two-party-system. we often inheret either a tendency to parrot our parents political perspectives or oppose them for many other reasons. but my point in reference to our current discussion is that we turn something like politics, which is supposed to be people working together for the good of all involved (right?), or cooperation, into conflict. this is more simply laid out as two or more participants in something chomping at the bit for one thing; wether it be well-being, power, money, or whatever, as opposed to two or more participants working together to share the benefits of different interactions. likesay, in other countries there are often multiple parties which tend to either lean "conservative" or "liberal" as opposed to different degrees of being a republican or a democrat. the u.k. for example has everything from the labor party (which is supposedly a left of center collective of mp's, to the brittish nationalist party, who are likely far-right cunts.) and everything in between. india has a cluster-fuck of different parties. australia has a party whose focus is mostly on sex. but i digress. as i do not believe institutions are ever the answer, i do choose to live my life the best i can by making my decisions for myself and choosing to make decisions relating to other people for the benefit of everyone involved. independence is best. when finding things out for ourselves is one of the few true freedoms we have, we should implore each other to do just that